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Sun, Jan. 21st, 2007, 01:44 pm



The shadows have been thicker around me lately. I can feel the dark ones pushing. It is becoming the season for knives and blood. I can feel her thirst, feel the razor sharp edge of her cold cruelty. I will have to stay away from white for a month or so I think.

Sun, Jan. 21st, 2007, 12:40 pm
Read this and HAD to post it

By an artist I only know as "Spidersong"

Guilt

I have hurt them
Somehow, without meaning to
In my quest to be gentle
I have crushed them utterly
I have seen their collapse

Kid gloves and eggshells
I don’t know how I could have been softer
There must have been a way
I simply did not see it
I failed them

Had I been stronger
Had I been more patient
Had I been kinder
Had I been other then I am…..

Had I been other then I am….

I don’t know how to be other then I am.

I am ugly
I am hateful
I am impatient
I am a liar
I am hurtful

I must be.

If I wasn’t,
They wouldn’t have been hurt
It must be me
Only….
I don’t know how.

I don’t know what it is I’ve done.
I don’t know how to control the damage I cause.
And so-
I will withdraw
Keep myself away from those I hurt

I will be lonely
But it is worth it to know that I will hurt no more.

Mon, May. 15th, 2006, 12:38 am
She cannot say the words.....

Love is a disease for which there is no cure.
I am falling ill.
You make me sick.

Wed, May. 3rd, 2006, 05:33 am
Dawn Patrol



Once again I see dawn from the wrong side. Every sunrise in my world brings a 4 mega-ton cloud.
It is in these early dawn hours that the voices have always been the loudest.
They scream and rage like victums of an Alighieri Inferno and I am helpless against the rising tide.....
Or at least so it seems- until I force myself to relax.

... That which yields is not always weak. I mean think about it- if you try to steamrollar over me and I just lie down- you're gunna hit the wall real hard. *BAM!* And me? well, I've been run over before- lots of times. I bounce back quick. Or at least- that's the plan.

Tue, May. 2nd, 2006, 04:45 am
Too Much

Too much
It closes in around me
Suffocating
The past chokes me
Mine
His
It is too much
If this keeps up-
I shall crack in truth;
I shall go mad
History repeats itself
And I have no safeword to make it stop
Pain - Too much.

Fri, Apr. 28th, 2006, 04:04 am
A return



It has been many months since I have entered this parlour of lies. I have instead been donning my mask on the streets. Plying my trade on patrons in their own domains rather then on my home ground.

Things have changed. Even the blue fairy cannot deny it.

My salon is in disarray and has been for quite some time. I have become a maiden of stone.
My heart has hardened to the world so that it will not again be broken by either man or woman.
Yes- I have learned again that women can crush my heart as cruelly as men. I have starts sitting in a drawer as a reminder of that truth.

To have a sullied memory is a perpetual bane.

Tue, Oct. 11th, 2005, 03:00 am
The Void



I slipped into the void last night.
It has been a long time since I've fallen into the deep black.

Wed, Sep. 14th, 2005, 12:16 pm
Seasons Change



I left for only a short time, and now that I have returned it is to find that the season has changed. Autumn is here and I am thrilled. The weather is cool enough now that I can pull out my coats, and capes, and hats and gloves! It's my favorite time of the year!

Sat, Sep. 3rd, 2005, 01:41 am
A Tribute to the Drowned Parlours



I have not visited my realm of lies in quite a while. I have returned to offer a rare kernel of absolute truth.

I am filled with nothing but sorrow at the state of affairs in New Orleans. She is a city who deserves more then the lot she has been forced to draw. So many of talent have been driven to the upper haunts of their homes just to keep their hems dry. So much has been lost.
Ah- and now the sorrow gives way- makes room for the anger. For, if that peasant hick of a president had given the city all the funding they had asked for, instead of just 1/6, perhaps the levies would have held.

Unforgiveable. Velvet never dries out completely.

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